Posted by All Done on April 13, 2006, at 13:20:04
I had a dream that I was curled up on my bed and very upset about something. My T came in the room and offered his hand to help me out of bed, but he had a towel covering his hand and forearm, like he wasn’t supposed to touch me or something. I let him help and when I stood up, I was much shorter than in real life. I only came up to his chest. He opened his arms for me to hug him and when I did, I completely lost it. He held me (the towel was gone) and stroked my hair. I felt scared but too comforted to let go, if that makes any sense. I woke up feeling nervous and all stirred up and have pretty much stayed that way for a few days.
Then, I never in a million years thought my T would call me without me calling first, but yesterday evening he left a message to let me know he was thinking about me and he knows it’s important to me that I know he’s thinking about me. He wondered how I’m doing but said it isn’t necessary to call back unless I want to. And he said goodnight.
He’s kind, caring, understanding, and thoughtful. I know it’ll be okay, but I’m still so nervous to tell him about the dream. I think by the phone call he’s trying to tell me it’s okay to want or need things from him (he’s said those words in person, too), but I’m waiting for the time I get brave enough to tell him what I want or need, and he has to tell me he can’t or doesn’t want to fulfill it for me. I think it could be the hug. :(
Laurie
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