Posted by RainDrops on April 9, 2006, at 22:11:42
Hey all. ;)
I recently posted on the newbies forum but I'll do a brief little intro here as well because this is the forum I've been lurking at most and probably the forum I'll be posting at most as well.
I've been in therapy for about 8 years now for my eating disorder (anorexia first, now bulimia), all the time with the same therapist, who has been wonderful. Of course I've had experience with many other therapists and P-Docs in between over the course of several inpatient stays and most recently a several-month intensive outpatient program. Which leads me to the point of this post...
This week will be my last week in this program I've been in for the past five months. I've become especially close to this one therapist (T2) I've been seeing there and I'm having an extremely hard time coming to terms with the fact that I may never see her again. I feel almost guilty for feeling this way because I know I have a great and very competent therapist outside of this place who I've been seeing for the past 8 years (T1). But there's just something about this woman (T2) that I can't get off my mind. She understands me better than anyone I've ever met and we just have this amazing connection. I feel like I've known her my entire life. And yeah, I find it a little odd that I would end up in tears at the end of every session with her yet in the entire 8 years I've been seeing T1 I've cried maybe 3 times. I've talked about this with a few of my friends from the program and they've suggested that maybe I'd be better off switching from T1 to T2... and while I honestly think I might be better off with T2 (and lately I've been thinking maybe I've gotten all I can from T1), I could never bring myself to part with T1. I'd feel like I was abandoning her after all she's put up with from me. So with T1 I stay...
ANYWAY... I'm trying to decide what to do for T2 as a sort of "goodbye gift." I already made her a wooden box thingy and gave it to her when I stepped down from day treatment. But this is the real goodbye. I was thinking of making her a nice scrapbooked card and inside writing about all that I've learned from her and how much she'll be missed, etc. I'm hoping I can't go wrong with something handmade, except of course being embarassed when giving it to her and probably crying my eyes out. ;P
Thanks for listening. ;)
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thread:631206
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