Posted by milly on April 7, 2006, at 5:32:59
In reply to Milly, How did it go? Are you okay?, posted by madeline on April 4, 2006, at 12:49:20
I can't tell you how it felt to get back and venture onto babble late last night (too late and shattered to post) to see your messages. It mean't soooooooo much to me, thanks.
Well the day and the hour arrived and I had written a letter so that I wouldn't end up forgetting to say anything (even then I keep thinking of stuff)and I read it to him.
It felt good to be so honest and truthful and accepted and loved.
We discussed the pain of time limited therapy and he told me my options and what he 'hoped' for me, which is to leave therapy in the NHS because he knows that if after i'm assessed I would again be offered time limited therapy (if offered anything at all)and how powerless I feel with the 'system'. He is writing to me to give me names of collugues who would 'suit' me. I asked the BIG question about whether he has private patients. He does, but he can't take me on because he isn't allowed but also because the 'feelings' in the room are mutual and although it hurts like hell to part it would do neither of us any good to continue.
It was one of the most painful but beautiful hours of my life! i gave him my sculpture and he cried.
We talked about 'our' journey and how we had both changed through taking it together.
Anyway I survived, thanks for caring. I expect I'll share more later but it is all so raw at the moment
milly
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