Posted by sleepygirl on March 16, 2006, at 22:07:26
In reply to I want to call my therapist......., posted by sleepygirl on March 16, 2006, at 19:46:39
I always feel like such a weirdo doing it though...
It seems he is away anyway, but I left a message saying that I was just "checking in" and that I have a nice relationship with his answering machine, and I have a lot of new stuff going on, okay stuff, but a lotIt's pretty much all I needed. I feel this need to "report" all the new stuff to him though, kind of in the way a kid might do on their first day of school or something like that.
When I was a kid there wasn't anyone to "check in" with most of the time when I really needed it, perhaps why I have felt so overwhelmed and utterly alone much of the time, and then the people I wanted to protect me were the most dangerous ones of all. I was always sort of distressed/confused/hurting/scared/alone
I think it must be nice to have a safe place/person to go to....I do, with my therapist now, but it is of course a limited relationship, within a time limit and all that, and now I'm not a kid anymore, but in a lot of ways I feel like one.
One of the things I've had a bit of grieving about are the things my parents didn't teach me, not even the abuse, but the neglect...the incredible neglect when I was really in needanyone know what I mean?
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