Posted by Daisym on March 14, 2006, at 21:19:29
In reply to Re: Dream, posted by madeline on March 14, 2006, at 15:34:14
We talked about the dream today. Two very strange things for me. First, I brought him the post, as written. Usually I put his name in and sort of "fix" it so it sounds better, and take out the babble reference. I didn't do that. He asked why I was referring to him in the third person (I dunno) and found it interesting that I didn't put his name back in.
The other thing was that after I started associating to the dream I got very uncomfortable. I told him I wanted to process it more on my own, so could we please stop? He agreed, of course. I'm still not sure why it felt so dangerous to pursue why this was such a vivid dream.
His initial thoughts were that it was about starting group tomorrow night. I've asked him a bunch of times to go with me, actually, to go first and tell me how it is. He also noted the crawling posture and then standing up. He also said it does sound like something he would do, only call, not come by. He reminded me that on Monday he had touched base early, because he hadn't been able to reach me over the weekend, and he had actually said, "You doing ok?" -- which he typically doesn't come right out and ask.
Anyway, I'll have to think about this whole thing some more. I think he's probably right about the whole group thing. I'm terrified they won't like me, that their stuff is worth being in therapy over and mine's not, and they will think I'm doing therapy wrong, and convince my therapist that we are doing it wrong and too much and..and..and..
I'm stopping now. Tomorrow is going to be a really long day. I have the pdoc too. I suspect I'll need support -- I hope you are all ready!
Yikes.
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