Posted by happyflower on March 10, 2006, at 19:55:37
I normally NEVER cry in public. My style is more like crying while taking a long bath listening to sad music so nobody has to see me.
But the day of my concert, I was working out at the gym and one of the instructors could tell I wasn't my usually self and asked me what was wrong. I told him I was nervous about my concert, but then I started to well up in tears.
Then today at my trumpet lesson I was talking to my teacher about what happened before my concert, and how I just wanted to quit. Then I got tears in my eyes, which caused him to tear up too.
I have never let this emotion show in public, and now I am afraid I am going to lose it in therapy because it is so hard to even think about the hole I fell into without tears forming. I have never let him see me cry either, but i feel it coming on. But I know he will be really stick on time on Monday, because he has a meeting right after my appointment. So I am scared.
Why now? What does it mean?
poster:happyflower
thread:618584
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