Posted by bent on March 9, 2006, at 13:08:51
...and goes out in public like she's a normal person or something!!!
I went to lunch with a coworker, kinda close to where my T's pracitice is. So during lunch my psychiatrist walks by the big windows outside the restuarant. But its my psychiatrist, I dont care that much. He is allowed in public. Then 30 minutes later my T walks by the same big windows! This causes me to fill with panic and sorta become paralyzed in mid-conversation. I tried to pull myself back to the conversation with my coworker as to not seem weird. Really though, I have seen my T out and about before and I have come to realize that she is infact a person with a life but I dont understand why when I see her the very first thoughts in my head are angry ones. They say 'I never want to talk to you again' and 'I hate you.' Its almost like I take as a personal stab to my emotions. I dont understand why it makes me think such angry things towards her. I feel like she just doesnt care and I dont want to see her. To make it more intense...when my coworker and I were walking up the street to our cars, there is my T walking down the same street in our direction!! She saw me from way ahead but immediately I said to my friend, wanna cross the street now?' and we did. I guess my T knows I was bolting to avoid her. This will teach me not to go to lunch that close to her office.
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