Posted by happyflower on March 8, 2006, at 11:30:55
In reply to Happyflower, did you see your T ?, posted by LadyBug on March 7, 2006, at 13:56:37
Thanks Ladybug for asking. I had a good session, it was nice to see him after 3 weeks.
I am feeling like crap right now so I am not into posting much (has nothing to do with my T and my appointment). I tried to see if he had a cancellation, but he didn't so I couldn't get in to see him before tonight. I really need to talk to him, I am really struggling with myself right now. He did talk to me a little bit about it on the phone and wished me luck tonight. But I know he doesn't get into therapy over the phone, so I didn't go into it much.
I am thinking of quiting the trumpet because sometimes I suck at it no matter how much I practice. Last night the directer yelled at me because I couldn't get it right. I felt bad already, but after he yelled at me, I really felt like sucky musican. Tonight is the concert and I feel like I am going to make a total fool out of myself and have a big spotlight shinning on my incompetense. I just want to hide under the covers tonight and not show up.
I need my T , I called him for an appointment this week because of the way I am feeling, but it doesn't help tonight at all. I know he is working at a school today so I should hear from him later this afternoon. But wait, I forgot to tell him to call me back. So I don't know. I left a message on his machine on how frustereated I am feeling and how I want to quit. I think he can tell by my voice how bad I am feeling, so I hope he calls me if he can even if I didn't tell him too. I don't even know if there is anything he can do to make me feel better about tonight.
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