Posted by holymama on March 7, 2006, at 13:51:48
In reply to Re: looking for new therapist..., posted by Poet on March 7, 2006, at 13:14:09
Thank you everyone.
I think this is when I do need to be here, to grab on to support.
These are good ideas, and I will ask my T for referrals when she gets back in two weeks. I haven't even fully discussed the idea of ending therapy with her -- just in small bits and pieces here and there. I almost feel she is being a bit unprofessional by NOT discussing a change with me, since I've been in an almost constant state of crisis since I've been seeing her. I've had a couple of good months here and there, three months tops...but in general things have been going downhill ever since I started therapy with her.
I thought of the word that suits the therapy I've been doing with her -- maintaainance therapy. Perhaps this is all she can do with me, since I have been in so much crisis. It never feels as if I am moving forward or as if she is helping me to move forward. It's always catch-up and a few hints on how to get through the week. I feel like if I am ever going to get out of this I need to make a big push forward. That might mean therapy 2 or 3 times a week, or a new therapist, or a group therapy...but I wish one of us would suggest a change. It will be me, when she gets back. I need to write this down, like what I've been writing here, so I can say these hard words to her when she gets back.
I feel really detached from my T right now because I haven't seen or talked with her in so long. It's been a couple of months. I had been depressed and avoiding help for a while and then I went out of state for 5 weeks and she left me a phone message saying she would rather not treat me when I was away. Now she's gone for 2 more weeks. I feel really alone in this. I did make a move to find a temporary therapist in Florida while I was there for the last 2 weeks. She turned out to be great -- a big surprise -- and really helpful for those two weeks (4 sessions). I can't expect to have that kind of luck finding a new therapist right away now that I'm home, but I was really hoping the first one would be a great surprise too.
Anyway, thanks all, for the advice and kind and supportive words. I'll keep posting so I can keep an anchor in these rough seas.
~~Autumn~~
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