Posted by madeline on February 19, 2006, at 4:23:02
It's about 5:00 am. I've been up since two. It's very quiet and very cold outside.
I am overwhemingly sad.
Maybe a little lonely too.
My therapist and I have been making a lot of progress lately on some pretty heavy things and I think it is just a backlash of me being so open with him. I have really connected with him and it feels so good. But it seems as though I can only carry that goodness around for a finite period of time.
Then I go back to the way I was - disjointed and sort of floating and afraid.
I don't know why that translates into sadness. It never has before. But it is.
We now meet twice a week and it helps.
A friend is coming over for breakfast, maybe that will perk me up.
Hope everyone is better than me.
Love
M
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