Posted by B2chica on February 9, 2006, at 8:51:07
ok, so i had all kind of speeches ready, and i had print outs from you guys and some websites stating my rights about my file and how she can't 'just have it'.
i even expected attitude from her and was going to argue back that it wasn't about her it was me, for me, about me...etc.i got there all full of attitude but remained calm. and of course all my responses shot to h@ll. i brought up about the file and my concerns and that the reason i wanted to start fresh was to be with someone who wasn't familiar with my background and could give me an unbiased opinion. well anyway she showed me that they did write 2/2 on the folder meaning this was file 2, which means my old T didn't lie...i should have trusted him more. anyway, i told her that there were some things that i wrote to my T that i didn't want her to read and asked if i could read what i wrote to see if i wanted to tell her or not...she let me read it! she said it's about you not me...dang it all that's what i was going to say to her!
so i thumbed through it, i didn't want to read his notes...probably not the best for me, course now i wish i did, anyway i re-read what i wrote about my 'mother' and things i remember when i was young. of course it was like the third page into the document so there is good likely hood that she read it...i don't know..part of me actually trusts her that she didn't?...i must be improving.**what do you all think, do you think she read some of the file? would she have just read his notes or my papers?
anyway-she was fine with closing that file and starting a new one. when session was done i even followed her to the office (needing to cancel next week appt -unrelated) and heard her saying to receptionist to close that file and open a new one.man i feel so much better. i still think she read some of it...but i like that she respected my wishes and at least fronted that she would start new.
man i wish my old T wouldn't have left so soon. i miss him something terrible.
thanks for listening.
b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:607896
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