Posted by LegWarmers on February 8, 2006, at 21:55:50
In reply to Re: I can't handle anything right now » LegWarmers, posted by Dinah on February 8, 2006, at 20:26:47
> Could it be depression?
>It could, Im trying to figure out what has happened. A part of me thinks that they is extra stress on me that has caused this but another part of me thinks that some major changes in my life over the last year have piled up and for what ever reason every few months or so it seems get too much. But I dont know, i dont understand, I don't feel supported emotionally (outside of here)
> I'm so different in one mood state than I am in another that I can barely recognize myself. And it's so easy to blame it on laziness or all sorts of other personal shortcomings.
Its so confusing when this happens.
this really kind considerate person told me that I was lazy among other things, actually a few people have. But they were trying to be helpful, tough love maybe? I never thought I was lazy until it was vrought to my attention. Now I do...now I see all that they see. but then again, I dont take peoples suggestions to heart that easlity normally, usually I think about it, sift through it.... but I feel like the things that were said to me, are what people think of me and so its probably true, but then again....they dont know all that ive done in my life.> But if that's the answer, why am I so full of all of those problems only sometimes? While other times (like last year for you) you weren't that way at all?
yeah, i know what you mean.
it probably started just over a year ago. I started therapy, it didnt work out, I started with someone else and that didnt work out. basicly...things were opened up and now I feel like I have been left to the wolves with open wounds. I feel very raw and vulnerable and Im irritable. But I do have wonderful days, no thoughts in my head except those good ole cheery ones, Im content, I enjoy life! Then something like this happens?? im pmsing, I wonder if thats my prblem? maybe I have a severe severe pms disorder? So over the last year I have experienced waves of feelings simliar to this whoch contine and lessen and then next time its worse ..and the cycle goes on....and on. this, is very new.
Oh god I dont know what is wrong with me but its scaring me.
at times it gets to be too much for my brain to take in
Im amazed I managed to communicate all that!
thanks Dinah
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