Posted by antigua on February 3, 2006, at 8:35:02
I'm not sure where I'm supposed to go from here, after telling my mother about my father abusing me when I was little. I do notice that it has let me think more negatively of him, something which is kind of new.
I saw my T this week and said, "I guess we're done now, right?" She just kind of laughed and said, "Well, I would like to see you again," which made me feel better. I don't panic at the thought of giving her up, well maybe I do a little, but I think I might have gotten as far as I can in therapy. There is still one huge, dark memory that I can't access, but since I've tried everything, I think I can live w/o knowing. As long as I don't emesh myself with stupid men that remind me of my father, I think I will be o.k.
Maybe the thought of termination is just too scary. My T told me once that termination could take 10 years! I think she was just being nice.
I do need to get a job now w/college looming next year for my oldest, so maybe we can work on that.
I feel good, but I'm so afraid of new demons that may surface.
best to all,
antigua
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