Posted by muffled on January 28, 2006, at 13:37:46
I used to hate myself so much it felt evil.
But I still here.
I drank early too.
Alcohol was everything to me.
Still is in many ways.
Been dry a good 10 years, but still socks me in the gut sometimes......the wanting.
But I know I can't, I just can't. Cuz if I do, it'll all go to sh*t again like it done so many times b4, just a matter of time.
When you wanna drink, try to remember all the bad stuff. I think thats what stops me, cuz i not in denial no more.
Still hurts.
But WAY better w/out drinking.
I don't hate mysef no more.
Not much.
Not like b4.
Take care James, you seem real smart and kind.
You got the pieces of the puzzle.
Just goto figger out how the hell they go together.
A good T can help.
Muffled
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