Posted by ClearSkies on January 23, 2006, at 16:30:20
It's the first time I have called this T while I am in crisis. Why am I so sure that I'm making a big deal out of a bump in the road? I can't concentrate, can't write (I keep leaving out verbs!!), I can't remember what people say to me, I can't remember why I'm driving sometimes, where I am going.
Crying every day. Not drinking, this is a good thing. But now I am preoccupied with my weight. Gaining all the time, can't eat enough, can't get full. I go to yoga classes and have to close my eyes so I don't see my rolls of flubber. Do bad hair hair bother anyone else as much as they do me?? Kind of spinning my wheels here, not really coherent running words all over the place.
Can't calm down, can't slow down the thoughts. I read words "wrong" all the time now,my brain is substituting letters that make the wrong words. Uh how can I describe this, it feels like someone else is driving my bus.
And i sobbed on the message I left for my T. How can she help me straighten out my brain? I will try anything. Going to see the pdoc tomorrow but I have to live with this messed up head in the meantime.It has never been this bad. What do I do with myself...
poster:ClearSkies
thread:602142
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