Posted by jammerlich on January 12, 2006, at 17:30:17
In reply to More of the same., posted by Racer on January 12, 2006, at 14:57:31
>>> I really do want to be able to go and put my head in someone's lap and be petted or held. I want someone to take care of me. I want, on those days that I can't even get out of bed, to have someone else cook breakfast, and maybe just sit with me. Or maybe to have someone bring me breakfast in bed. I want someone to help me with the things I find too hard, for whatever reason. And there's no one there, and I feel overwhelmed by it all.
<<<< I'm wondering if it's really so bad to want these things? Surely it isn't. I totally identify with the desire to be held and petted and I think the conflict in it all, for me, is how can I think myself smart and capable, yet still be vulnerable and needy (I have to keep telling myself those aren't dirty words)sometimes. And even though I can't really feel it on an emotional level, about myself, at least, I do believe that a person can be both.I'm sorry I don't have any insights. I only have questions, just like you do. But I'll sit with you and quietly hold your hand if you want. Or I can chatter endlessly to help keep your brain numbed out. You won't have any responsibilities. And if you like pets, I have the cutest cocker spaniel who loves nothing more than sleeping under the covers - a really great thing if your feet are cold.
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