Posted by Susan47 on December 28, 2005, at 12:05:26
In reply to can't stop crying here, posted by Frida on December 27, 2005, at 13:40:54
Your therapist obviously really does care about you very much, Frida. She's trying very hard to help you feel secure. Try and relax a little bit into that. Time is both an enemy AND a friend, so don't despair in the time that you do have before you see her again, but use it to make you both proud of the strength you have in spite of what's happened to you, and don't worry sweetie, it won't stay inside of you forever.
I remember once I brought a cartoon into my ex-T. Two lambs(?) standing in a field, one saying to the other, "Sometimes I worry I'm a wolf dressed as me." Don't worry, the wolf inside is not you.. it's what you've internalized from Them, the other, the one(s) who've hurt you. When you're not malignant, but vulnerable and open, and you don't know how to protect yourself, and malignancy comes at you from others, it can leave you terribly afraid of yourself, and unable to self-comfort and self-soothe. But we're here, hopefully we can help until your T gets back, Frida. Babble isn't always easy, but you'll always find one or two people who will help you. (((Friday)))
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