Posted by Poet on December 21, 2005, at 10:59:28
In reply to hospitalization for major depression, posted by underthecs on December 20, 2005, at 21:10:51
Hi Underthecs,
I've been where you are. It was in Spring 2004 when I quit my job under duress. My meds either stopped working or my depression was stronger than they were.
I had a plan and a date and I told my T about it.
My T wanted me to go inpatient. I refused. She called my husband and told him to call 911 on me if he had to. She threatened to call 911 on me herself if I didn't go inpatient.I agreed to see a pdoc for new meds, my T called me between sessions to *check in* and I got much needed support here. I also signed a no harm agreement that I wouldn't *hurt* myself between sessions.
Meds take time to work, it's hard to remember that when you're feeling so low. It's hard to drag yourself out of bed to go to therapy, too. Can you talk to your T on the phone? While I was angry at my T for the 911 threats, her calling me did help me talk about suicide and depression. I got much needed support here, too.
Call your T, tell him/her how you are feeling and why you can't come in for sessions. Post here. It will help you to talk about how you are feeling in anyway you can. Tell yourself that you will get through this without the hospital, that you won't hurt yourself and can keep yourself safe through the crisis.
I'm sorry this reply is so long, I know how hard it is to concentrate when you're depressed. You can get through this, your strength is shown in that your are looking for a job even though you don't feel like doing much of anything. Draw on that strength.
Safe cyber hugs.
Poet
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