Posted by LadyBug on December 18, 2005, at 23:39:32
In reply to I don't want to go see my T., posted by LadyBug on December 18, 2005, at 13:52:37
Thanks for telling me I need to go! I know it will help and make it worse if I don't see her. Somehow I feel like she is going to reject me or something. Maybe part of the fear is because I did so much talking at our last visit she could hardly get a word in. I left feeling empty inside.
I don't like change, even when it's good. Is that wierd or what? I liked going to see her on my day off so I could really get into our work. With this new schedule I will be going after work when I'm not in the right mind to do therapy.
I think I will call her tomorrow, or not, and tell her I don't feel like coming and I'm trying to figure out why. Part of me wants her to "want" to see ME, not me wanting to see her. Geez, I'm a mess. I do have lots to think about.
One good thing is; I got my resume done!! And my cover letter and now I'm in the process of doing the application part. And then I better get my butt to bed!! Maybe tomorrow will be better. I wish I could go see my T. tomorrow and everyday this week. Like thats going to happen?
I know we all have struggles right now. I'm sure glad we have each other to lean on.
Thanks a bunch for all your care!!!
LadyBug
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