Posted by alexandra_k2 on December 16, 2005, at 16:40:13
In reply to I don't like..., posted by fairywings on December 16, 2005, at 12:39:09
oh yes. i think i know exactly what you mean. i can be all self-possessed and cool calm and collected but sometimes the littlest thing... and i am just a little hurting and scared kid again. i don't like it either...
> why does that happen?
probly your hurt kid. who finds it hard to trust because shes been hurt before.
> he must think i'm a real brat.
maybe... but maybe he thinks you have been hurt and find it hard to trust sometimes.
> last week he asked me something - to refresh his mind about something, but it was the end of the session, and it was a big issue, so i didn't want to get into it. i said, "nevermind". i couldn't make eye contact, and i just felt so immature. he asked why i dismissed him. was i dismissing him? and why would he ask me to bring up something huge with a minute left in the session? i mean it was time to leave, and he asked me. i don't get that.ah.
if you told him that...
then i think he would understand.
maybe he didn't realise it is / was such a big issue for you.sometimes...
we can be all hurt and scared on the inside but from the outside we still look cool calm and collected (hard to credit but apparantly that is fairly common)
so maybe... he really didn't realise.
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