Posted by cubic_me on December 16, 2005, at 14:12:49
In reply to Re: ((((((((((cubic me)))))))))))) » cubic_me, posted by B2chica on December 9, 2005, at 11:35:57
I went to the GP today. I don't have a regular one since mine went on maternity leave, so I saw another at the practice. He said that I didn't look depressed and seemed to be functioning ok so he doesn't think I should go on meds (not that he wouldn't prescribe them if I wanted them, but he was strongly against it). He said I hadn't been off the venlafaxine long enough yet to stabilise and should wait 6-12 months and see how I am then.
I feel pretty let down. I stopped going to see the pdoc because he didn't listen and now I'm back there again. Perhaps I shouldn't have had a shower this morning to 'look' more depressed, but it's in my nature to hide it. Everything public that I have to do is done (work, a bit of socialising, smiling etc) unless I am absolutely at the edge. I often function while thinking of suicide 24/7, although luckily I'm not that bad at the moment.
He said to come back in January if I was feeling 'a lot worse'. If I felt 'a lot' worse I might not be here.
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