Posted by annierose on December 13, 2005, at 18:02:14
In reply to Re: What happened today .... » 10derHeart, posted by Dinah on December 13, 2005, at 17:40:58
Not to beat a dead horse ... BUT ...
My T did express to me a few weeks ago when I was struggling (The "Do I Matter?" thread) that she did like me and she did care about me. She made a point to say that when you work this closely with someone (I took that to mean 3x per week over a long period of time) that you just can't turn the feelings on and off. Saying that, she keeps very firm boundaries, discloses little if anything about herself and maybe only twice has shared a "story" (once about herself, once about a "friend"). Although she tries to be that blank slate sort of T, I do feel I know her fairly well. I think by the questions they ask, or don't ask, and their tone, etc. we can learn a ton about our Ts and what they are feeling. But like Fallsfall said earlier, every once in awhile it's good to ask them what they are truly thinking about something.
Anyway, back to yesterday (which seems so long ago, and I can't believe I won't see her until Thursday ... should have added that Tuesday session, if only it wasn't so expensive!) ... she did tell me after my questioning that she was disappointed. But with my background and current legal situation with my family, I took that to mean, "I'm disappointed I won't be able to bill you for that session." Now, that is my TOTAL projection. But it does feel that way. And I will share that new insight with her on Thursday. Another layer of frustration I think I figured out, I felt minimized. She just didn't get how blue I was for missing an appointment.
Thanks to Dinah and GG re: me and dumplings. That was very sweet!! I have let that go; she is just a wench.
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