Posted by 10derHeart on December 1, 2005, at 1:04:12
In reply to Re: (Yet) another perspective on love in therapy » one woman cine, posted by Tamar on November 30, 2005, at 20:05:23
>>Maybe I'm just too depressed to talk about this...
Hi there dear Tamar,
Sorry if your're still feeling so down....but, no, I don't think it's your depression "talking."
I'm not in the least depressed at the moment (for me - which is plenty good enough right now) and I reacted almost exactly as you did to those ideas.
Perhaps I'm a bit too "chicken" to even hear what the SO of a pdoc has to say.....but it's like the proverbial car wreck....possibly horrifying but you still just have to look.....
It's a confusing, scary and difficult topic. One I'm dealing with on some level right now with my T. (not romantic and/or sexual at the moment....that was ex-T <sigh> ) and it takes a lot out of both of us to try to keep working through it.
I've said some of your words and ones that mean the same just today and last week in therapy.
"I can't stand feeling I might be invisible..."
"How will I ever know, really know, that *I* - me 10der the person - matters to you? The thought I really could just not matter is awful..."
"I'm terrified that this atttachment is all just..."ho-hum" to you. And if so, that means I'm nothing, not special, not unique, not anything but a subject to be studied in here..."
And on and on...(ad nauseum, I sometimes think).
It's hard as h*ll but we keep talking about it...
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