Posted by daisym on November 21, 2005, at 15:38:30
In reply to Daisy?, posted by 10derHeart on November 20, 2005, at 0:31:24
I'm working on the "I don't want to" stuff. It is really hard to live with the guilt. I talked to my therapist yesterday and he said the worst thing I could do was take it back once I've (tried) to speak "my truth." He uses that term but I'm not sure I know what my truth is yet. He said we should just celebrate that I'm able to say, out loud, "I don't want to do that right now" especially about sex. It was good to talk to him yesterday because I had an emergency on Thursday at work and had to skip therapy. We did talk on Friday, but it was mostly about work stuff. I was able to tell him yesterday that I was missing him and he said he thought it was good that even with all the work stuff I still needed to be connected to him. Usually when things get this chaotic, I flip into complete superwoman mode and cut the connection because it makes me "weak." This is progress, I suppose.
Truthfully things are a bit of a nightmare everywhere right now, work and home. But my kids are coming for Thanksgiving and hopefully i'll get a break from all this stress, at least for a few days. I'm baking -- never a good sign. But it makes my office happy.
Thanks for asking after me. :)
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