Posted by muffled on November 20, 2005, at 23:31:17
In reply to Re: I think I might be grieving, posted by crushedout on November 20, 2005, at 16:40:57
Hi crushed, don't think I've posted to you before, I'm muffled, sometimes, sometimes I noisy!
> I cut back because of money/insurance. I had some amazing insurance for about 4 years and it just ended. :(
Serious bummer. Sh*t.
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> i'll see my T tomorrow. we have a double session. i can't wait. i miss her so much. the last time i saw her, though, i was filled with dread about seeing her, and i'm a little afraid tomorrow will feel like that, too. i think it feels extremely scary to me right now. maybe especially because of the drugs.I get that way too. Screws up the session cuz by the time I relax, sessions over!
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> i really don't want to get high before therapy and i can't seem to stop myself from doing it. i'm going to try tomorrow but i don't know if i can
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What are you high on? Does it just chill you? or does it make the session wrecked? You got addictions issues? I was only high (pot) once when I went in. Kinda miscalculated the time and it was wicked smoke. She knew before long. I felt real bad. Like I wasn't really being respectful of her time or something by being high. I dunno. Sucked anyways.
Have you talked to her about strategies to avoid the drugs b4 therapy problem?
Therapy sure is freaky eh? I'll be thinking on you.
Mebbe try to keep straight for appts? or even in general? Ha, like I can talk eh!!
Oh well. I care too.
Sorry if this post is weird, I feel weird. Been a weird week.
Been a weird freaking life.
In a weird world.
Sorry you're hurting, dunno what to say, but hope it gets better soon. :(
I only do 1x/wk therapy and from what I hear here I think it best to stay that way.
Muffled
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