Posted by rjlockhart on November 14, 2005, at 19:30:49 [reposted on November 16, 2005, at 0:59:43 | original URL]
Before i used to work for my dad's (real dad) firm, my dad was harsh, critial, demanding, I always put on a big smile on my face to cover up the instablity, and litterly have stimulation.
Right now, i feel im at home with my parents , i feel i have to induce this "hypomanic" state to cope with stress. Its has degrees, sometimes its mild, sometimes its moderate, and sometimes its full blown. But it seems to calm down, i dont stay up nights and have real extreme mania.
With this feeling what is there to come? I have to tell myself this is something im going to have to get out of. I have feelings of stimulation in the evenings.
I would rather call it mild hypomanic panic. I do have a catagoy system
1. Anxiety
2. Stimulation
3. Hypomania - when i start to feel good about everthing.
4. Hypomanic Panic- usally edgy and feel mentally unstable, and feel a drive to do something.
5. Panic- this is when i really get off, think things that i think are bizarre.I dont know if this is defence mechanism, to handle all the obstractances there are, i cant get medical treatment without my mom's consent,
When i have gone really manic, i walked out of the house and walked all the way to Fort Worth (City near dallas) i said im going to make it, im going to find a place to stay, or apply for jobs downtown. I got HORRIED sunburn, i didnt care, i looked for Buses, Taxies, but could not get on one, so i litterally walked to fort worth. I was tired but I had the feeling to get out of my house, keys tooken away, parents ignored me. And still said "it will pass". Mom picked me up, late at night.
Anyways, i feel im in a sitation where you have to go on. These manic episdoes are triggered sometimes to deal with it.
I want help, but i have to boost myself to feel secure.
Can this be true, mania induced by situations?
Matt
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