Posted by Pfinstegg on November 6, 2005, at 11:48:32
In reply to Re: I Made It! Very Long » Pfinstegg, posted by antigua on November 6, 2005, at 10:08:04
Thanks for telling us. It's so sad and confusing when sex and love get so mixed up in our minds as children. It's a wonderful insight that you can now see the steel barrier against feelings in the man you wanted to hug, and that you were able to give up the longing to do so, and also the intense fear of rejection which came with it. Your T may have been in the background a bit when all this was happening, but I have a feeling that the hard work you are doing with her, and the increased trust you are working so hard for, may have been what allowed you to gain so much insight, and step back from that painful situation on your own. At any rate, you hav e so much to be proud of- and plenty to share and process with her next week. That will probably make things even better, and give more immediacy to the extremely hard work you are doing about your father. I'm not sure, but yours sounds a lot like mine- very much interested in satisfying his own needs, and very lacking in real love, or even a consciousness of what was right and wrong for him to do as an adult.
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