Posted by heatherann on October 30, 2005, at 10:33:56
In reply to Med free and no dime-store psych please, posted by catmint on October 30, 2005, at 0:20:51
Hi Catmint,
I read your post on Withdrawal about lamictal. I replied there but figured I'd try to catch up with you here - I haven't checked the substance abuse board yet. Did you post there too? I'll check in a little while. Email me if you want - I really identified with everything you had to say.
Its great you are asking for help, not just for your sake, but because it helps me to remember how it felt when i was still drinking - yuck. Alone, scared, helpless, trapped, crazy, out of control...sick...scared...ashamed....scared...alone...scared... i'll stop there
You may not want to hear this - and if you think this is dime-store it may be because you aren't ready to listen - but - I can tell you that in my experience, nothing got better, and nothing felt better until I gave up, and stopped drinking and smoking pot.
I wound up in AA to stop drinking and using, and I've been sober for 14 years - and although my mental illness is still pretty f-ed up sometimes (and I want off my meds too! believe me I'm trying)- I'm not drunk so I have a chance of trying to find my way out of a paper bag, or pulling my head out of my *ss - or even actually really enjoying my life - whatever, wherever I may happen to be with myself at any given moment. :) When I was drinking there was nothing I could do about whatever problems were making my life difficult - and really the drinking was making that worse - like walking through a swimming pool of taffy, heading toward the deep end. Like a fire extinguisher full of lighter fluid.
Take it easy Catmint. If you want to chat about AA email me.
> I am alcohol dependent, just stopped my meds, smoke cigarrtes, pot.
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> I have a kid, am single, have been on disability for 3 years, got the training I needed recently through Voc. Rehab. waiting to take State Board Exam for Licence. I'm about to lose my part-time job because of tardiness, and sick days.
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> I'm broke, trying to get foodstamps. I have to move in 1 month.
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> I have no support from family, only moral support from one or two friends.
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> Yea, life's no picnic.
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