Posted by Damos on October 24, 2005, at 17:41:19
In reply to banished/sorry/bye/long***trigger**, posted by muffled on October 24, 2005, at 16:20:41
> I was blocked, for a week, BAM. Just like that. So unexpected, for the f-word,on the writing board. i didn't know it'd be such a big deal. You hear it every where. I hope i didn't hurt no-one with mt post. I'm a m terribly sorry if so. but not surprized. I just felt so strongly to expess how awful I am. I wanted the bad to ease up. BAM.
Yeah I know, you didn't hurt or upset anyone okay. I was really upset when I saw the block, sorry I didn't do a better job of advocating on your behalf.
> It was so sudden, so complete, so awful, so confirming of what I'd just written. Banished. I thot I'd found a place where i could talk to such nice people. Where I could finally relax and not double think everything I say. I relaxed, and let myself be more myself, and got banished.
Muffled I can't imagine how hard it was, I've been really worried about you and am just so glad to see your tag. Please, please, please don't go.
> I later found out I could e-mail Dr.Bob and did. I expressed my feelings, I asked him to take back my post if it was harmful. I don't wanto hurt people. My badness hurts people. He said "I don't know that anyones been hurt, except maybe you!" Why would he put an exclamation mark there???? Was he laughing at me???? He hurt me. He will not hurt me again. I can't be banished if I am not me. If I am always careful. But then this place is no good anymore is it?
Dear one please read what Bob wrote on Admin about it being more about the [] appearing to be an attempt to override the auto-asterisking than the word itself. No-one believes you were trying ot do the wrong thing becasue the * was in the right place anyway. I think it was just bad timing and everybody was feeling on edge including Bob I guess and so maybe he applied the *rules* a little harder than he might have at another time. I don't think Bob was laughing at you, I really don't think he's like that. I think that maybe he was saying that attacking yourself really only ended up hurting you in the end. Sadly though you can't communicate tone of voice and facial expression in text very well. And maybe the head space you were/are in spins in ways it isn't meant (that's what happens to me). I understand the need to lash out at yourself in print I really do. Please don't let this one thing rob us of your company - please. We need and want you here with us cause you have got lots of good stuff to say an dI know you've helped and supported others too.
> So my bad post was so confirmed, its so true. Kinda cool if sad I suppose. I don't care.
Your post was not bad Muffled, you are not bad. It was a technical interpretation of the rules.
> So THANK-YOU all you guys. You write so amazing stuff. I hope with time and patience you will all have more and more healing.
Please don't leave us.
> Thank-you,Damos.
No, thank you Muffled
> I'm so sorry.
You have nothing to be sorry for, nothing at all.
> (((((Babblers)))))
((((((((((Muffled))))))))))
Damos
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