Posted by Dinah on October 9, 2005, at 10:01:04
In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on October 8, 2005, at 8:08:50
I would say that this experience with therapy was valuable in that it exposed a lot of errors I made with a new therapist. I don't think I should think of just being able to jump into therapy. If I ever do it again, I'm going to be a lot more cautious.
I sort of see this as the opposite of victimhood. I could go from therapist to therapist thinking that's the only way I'll be ok. Or I can realize that I can be ok on my own, with enough Risperdal, and that any therapist is not actually better than no therapist at all.
If my therapist continues his junkets or terminates me I'll probably convince my husband to move, and if necessary start over again.
But this isn't really the right time to do this. The pickings are slim. I'm in distress, and early sessions with a therapist don't decrease that. Plus.... Maybe it's like a love affair in another way. Maybe you just can't go from one directly to another. Maybe you need a cooling off period. I know I nearly burst into tears during the session missing my therapist and thinking that whatever was going on at the time would never ever have happened with my therapist.
I think it's sort of taking control of my life. Saying "Ok, my therapist won't be around for at least a month, maybe forever. But I'm going to figure out ways not to be dependent on this therapist or any other."
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