Posted by fallsfall on September 13, 2005, at 8:18:17
In reply to decisions,decisions,decisions, posted by leslieamy8 on September 12, 2005, at 22:04:22
I hear so much pain in your post. And it is awful to fear oneself.
Do you have a safe person or place in your life? A spouse, or friend or pet who makes you feel safe?
Do you have a therapist? If you don't, it might help to find one to talk to.
I know about feeling evil. But I also know that those feelings don't have to be forever. There is hope (even if it is hard to see).
If you are going to hurt yourself, please go to the emergency room of the nearest hospital. They can help you there.
Find something that gives you a little joy/peace/happiness (for me, it is ice cream), and allow yourself that. Go swing on the swings at the park. Blow bubbles. Pat your dog.
Things can feel so bleak. But they can also get better. Keep posting.
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