Posted by Angela2 on September 5, 2005, at 15:59:52
My last therapy session was last Friday. I don't mean I'm terminating therapy, I just mean that the last time I had therapy was on Friday. It seemed to go pretty well. We talked a lot about my meds and the pros and cons of staying on/ going off them. Then we talked about my job and how I've been emotional there. I don't have much to say about that part. Except, I've been more emotional at work lately and I'm worried about being the office crazy person ebcause I've cried a few times there.
Then we got onto the topic of impulsivity and the fact that I excessively talk to certain people about my problems (my brother and my academic advisor) when I think maybe I shouldn't be talking *so much* about myself and how I think maybe it could be ruining my relationships. We talked about forming good relationships so that I can get good references for jobs. There's really nothing I can do about the crying episodes now, but I was told by my boss that I'm doing a good job and he has no complaints about me. I don't know why I can't just believe that.
I never actually talked to my t about how I feel like she doesn't touch base on a few things. It just didn't seem important when I went into therpay that day. Other things had been going on that needed to be tended to.
One thing I am trying to do right now is distance myself from my therapist. There was a time in my life not so long ago, when she was my world, and I didn't really think outside the box of therapy, and I don't want that to happen again. A consequence of this was that when I got a boyfrined and started hanging out with his friends, I wasn't well equipped socially and it seemed like I was going to therapy a lot more often during some of the hard times I had with my boyfriend and his friends. I think I should just be able to handle and cope on my own. She isn't God or anything close to it, and I want to stop putting her on a pedestal. It seems like when things get hard I think of going to her. I would like to just cope on my own to save money and I would like to stop thinking of her as my world just as I don't want just art to be my world or just TV. It may be comfortable to live like that, but when adversity hits, I end up not knowing what to do.
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