Posted by alexandra_k on August 24, 2005, at 16:26:53
In reply to Re: Complete Reversal » alexandra_k, posted by cricket on August 24, 2005, at 15:56:42
> Sometimes I don't even understand why I want to give them up.
Because of all the reasons you started going to therapy in the first place.
I think its okay to feel detached and numb when faced with something thats really hard that you can't change. Thats beyond your power to change.
But it sounds like... It was in the past that things were beyond your power.
Trust is so very very very hard. Its something that I struggle a lot with too.
I have trouble looking... I think we have talked about this before. Typically it comes up on the agenda... And the therapist turns it into a major issue. I mean a major issue. I've been terminated before because I wouldn't look at a t. I emailed my t about a couple things this week and she said that is is okay. She understands that its hard enough for me to talk and she doesn't mind at all.
:-)
Trust is hard. I guess all I can say is that I think it is about taking little risks. Sharing something that is a little bit hard. And then if they respond positively then you trust them a little more. And then to keep on taking those little risks and after a while things seem safer. Then the risks can get a little bigger. Its hard too because along the way it is inevitable that there will be a miscommunication or something and your t won't respond in the most helpful way (like the bad session that you had). But... They are only human. And it does sound like he is really trying. And a little effort goes a long way in my book.
Baby steps.
It has to get better.:-)
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