Posted by rabidreader on August 22, 2005, at 14:59:42
In reply to Re: Terrible termination *trigger*, posted by Declan on August 20, 2005, at 18:36:32
Wow, a whole year before termination? That is amazing. I'm not sure how long my T knew beforehand that he was leaving--but there I am again, trying to excuse him. Well, I am still in love with him. It's hard to see reality. I guess reality is that it wasn't long enough and now he's gone and there's nothing I can do but try to pick up the pieces. And move on.
You're right, he did abuse my trust. It's interesting--I realize now so many things I didn't like about our therapy but was too scared to say because of my feelings for him. He was really CT-oriented. EVERY therapy session he used the Beck Institute "Evidence for/Evidence Against" sheet to examine core beliefs. Even the day I told him about my feelings for him...he found a core belief and we examined it. Then he wrote it up and sent it to me at my home. I cried to see my human feelings distilled to such scientific data.
Thanks for writing, Declan.
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