Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 17, 2005, at 2:52:57
In reply to I really messed up this time, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 16, 2005, at 7:58:28
My T took me in right away yesterday and he will be talking with my husband today. I found the bike at a bar unharmed. The bar owner said that i walked outside and passed out and then went into convulsions, They called the ambulance but i came to (b4 ambulance arrived) and was like a caged animal. Four people held me down (guess thats where i got the black eye) Then hospital knocked me out with sedatives and put me in restraints. I have to get back to work today and try to stop this therapy fear from controlling me. I havent worked in more than a week now and Im at risk of losing the business. I know for sure that i cant drink anymore as last month it landed me in the lock-up, last night the hospital, and next time would probably be a cemetary. I guess i just needed to check to see if i was still an alcoholic. Gotta give it my best shot now to stay sober, stop freaking out about falling apart, and get back to work.
Think im finally feeling pathetic enough about myself to change. I sure hope so.
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