Posted by greyskyeyes on August 12, 2005, at 13:06:00
In reply to It's only money and hassle, posted by crushedout on August 12, 2005, at 12:36:47
OK, you definitely have sympathy from me. I freak out when things get broken/ destroyed, even little things like dishes. I'm still beating myself up over a wooden tray I broke last year in a fit of rage - it's part of a set of 4 so every time I see the remaining 3 I remember the 4th and want to cry. The irony is I have this tendency to throw/ slam things when I'm upset so it's all kind of, um, counterproductive. Anyways.
You're right: it *is* only money and hassle. But it's one thing to say that rationally, and another thing for your heart to accept it. Simple things take on so much more meaning than the surface would indicate. For you, your computer is your lifeline (to borrow your words). For me, when the table was broken I was deep in the throes of BPD + MDD, dealing with post-partum hormones and lots of childhood issues dragged to the forefront when my son was born, plus the fact that I was largely unresponsive to medication; the table represents a hideous summer I desperately wish had never happened. Make sense? It's not the laptop you mourn, it's what it stands for. (And a new computer is NEVER the same, they all have their own idiosyncrasies which need to be learned and adjusted to)
That being said, can I give some advice? Bottled water!!! (this is from someone who's fried a keyboard or two) :)
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