Posted by Daisym on August 2, 2005, at 13:36:24
In reply to I suppose it doesn't really matter.. » B2chica, posted by pinkeye on August 2, 2005, at 13:07:47
b2c,
Memory can be like puzzle pieces and sometimes they don't all fit together and what you think is a sky piece is actually the color of the table cloth...
I told my therapist once that I was concerned that I kept "revising" my story. But actually it was just spinning out, pieces that I've always known led to pieces that I kind of knew which led to stuff I had completely supressed. Things would drop out of the sky and into memory during sessions, or I would dream about things. The worst (fear wise anyway) was a session where we were talking about something grown up, present day, not a childhood memory at all. But I was getting so anxious and he finally asked, "but that didn't happen to you...did it?" And the fear landed like a cold bucket of water and I just knew. And he knew. He said he could feel the whole atmosphere in the room change. It was really awful.
So, what doesn't "fit" right now might later. Or it might never. My best suggestion is just leave it alone, maybe write it down and then put it away. If you try to force it you could flood yourself and that is very dangerous. When do you have therapy again?
Take care of yourself.
Daisy
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