Posted by pinkeye on July 27, 2005, at 17:32:08
In reply to Re: Hyper energetic when happy and it is a problem.., posted by rabble_rouser on July 27, 2005, at 17:26:03
For now, I am sort of ok with the hyper thingy - I don't act out or act like a maniac with others.. Just that I feel hard to contain the energy..
But I have felt that all along in my life, I have been a little high energy person. I always had more stamina and energy and enthu than many people and even though my mental depression and problems made it little worse and drained me a little bit and I was sad and depressed, I was still comparitively high energy individual than the rest of the group. Even heights of depression didn't impair my energy that much.. That is why my ex T even got confused in diagnosing me.. I was still funcitoning well in job, and I was eating, sleeping, talking normally and rationally etc.. only that I was crying and sad and throwing things.. he thought I was just being a jerk whereas I was really depressed..
So for now, I am not going to bother about this hyper thing I suppose.. Maybe I will just attribute it to that I need to do more on those days. It would have been nice if I could have done some physical activity like play sports so I can drain myself of some excess energy on those days, but unfortunately I am not able to do anything because of my arthritis.
> Hmm so good or bad news? Sometimes I think its just nice to know, to have a 'catch-all' reason for all this stuff.
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> I dont know if you feel the same, but I find it frustrating that I should have these funny little quirks - I'm not sure why but I view them as weaknesses, when maybe I should just see them as human qualities. They're only a pain in the *ss when they happen at work - it affects my rationality!
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> In a way that was why I felt happy when I read about BPD - finally a one-size-fits-all reason for my, well, personality!
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> Anyway I'm rambling - hope you find some relief.
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> :)
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> Rabble
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