Posted by 10derHeart on July 23, 2005, at 21:55:12
In reply to sorry about this post, maybe I should just shut up, posted by happyflower on July 23, 2005, at 20:07:35
No. NO. PLEASE don't shut up.
It's really, really okay what's you've written.
You sound angry and like you dumped a bit more of the poison, and Babble is a great, safe place for that.Also remember, so many people read and don't post. Or maybe just not yet. You could be helping someone right this minute feel stronger about having lived through the same kind of torture, just by their reading such honest things from you. Like maybe someone even in therapy, but too scared to tell their T. what really happened to them....you never know. There's just so much power and support in realizing you're not alone in stuff.
It's like...while we're still very much hurting and getting help from our Ts and Babblers, we can - unknowingly and on purpose - help others. It gives me some peace to realize that part, you know?
I think....
...happyflower and absusedflower are the same lovely person...and I like it when any and all parts of that person are here. We love you in all your different aspects, I promise :-)
...that the only "dirty" secrets are actually your *female parental unit's* (if that's okay - it seems about right :-( ) so even though I can see how writing these things feels so hard and exposing....remember SHE should be ashamed, remorseful, embarrassed, and feel she had something "dirty" to hide, NOT you...but I know you already know that....just reinforcing that this was done TO YOU when you were a HELPLESS CHILD!!
Happyflower, you are awesome. Really. You have done the one thing your mother nor anyone else involved can ever take away - turned your back on evil and abuse and brought beautiful children into the world where you love and cherish them daily. That kind of REAL mothering causes God to wipe a tear of joy from His eye, IMHO.
And BTW, I am quite honored to *know* you.
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