Posted by Susan47 on July 20, 2005, at 20:19:35
In reply to Re: I'm with you Pinkeye and Dinah » Susan47, posted by pinkeye on July 20, 2005, at 14:30:54
You said maybe you pick yourself up too soon and don't give yourself a chance for full healing. You do seem to try and "pull yourself up by the socks", you do that often. It's like a rational part of your brain is clicking in, then another part takes over again. I do that, in any case. Perhaps, if we could keep that rational part going, if we could feed it with repetitive thoughts that are positive, we could keep feeling good. But it is hard to do, because the negative is so ingrained it sneaks up, doesn't it? Before I know it, I'm feeling unhappy and insecure and when I finally realize it, the good thoughts just won't come. I need someone to talk me out of it ... lately I can remember my ex-T talking to me, being supportive of me, and I try so hard to remember that one time, his support, over and over again I go back to it when someone at work (one person, it's always One Person who ruins it for everybody) tries to intimidate me. I really do need a positive, responsive therapist, someone who'll be supportive of me. But I don't know where to go, which direction to look into. I feel maybe like a widow whose husband has died and who can't change her loyalties to another man ... I just don't want to give this T up, yet I know that's completely irrational. He gave me something nobody ever ever did before, and it's so bad not having that something, I just can't seem to stop grieving it.
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