Posted by spalding on July 20, 2005, at 17:56:33
In reply to Re: Thinking of doing something stupid **trigger* » Dinah, posted by pinkeye on July 20, 2005, at 17:45:46
Hi pinkeye:
I have been there. I totally know what you're going through. It really can come take hold, and hard.
I like what Dinah said about doing something self-indulgent instead of self-destructive...but I would have a tough time, too, trying to figure out what. For me I think it would just be to shut myself in my office with some snacks and some stupid TV. Ironically, when I do that a lot of times I end up drifting into writing and thinking and end up feeling better.
But looking back on your message...don't give them the power. If you hurt yourself and then turn around and say, "See?" they will either say, "oh I'm sorry" (but probably not, I suspect) or "I didn't make you do that! Don't be ridiculous" Not a win-win situation, more like lose-lose. You don't want to end up feeling that way. Worse.
Try to do something good for yourself. Or post away here. I do hope you feel better soon.
spalding.
> What I am feeling these past couple of days is really scary - even to me.. IT is almost like somehow I want to take a revenge.. against my dad, my ex T, my husband.. I want to do something really bad to myself and tell them "look - this is what all you great guys brought me to"..and throw away my life at their face. It is really scary feeling.
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