Posted by kerria on July 2, 2005, at 0:42:58
In reply to you've done a lot » kerria, posted by badhaircut on June 30, 2005, at 9:30:24
Hi Badhaircut, hi Everyone,
Meditation and prayer is a good thing to do just to quiet my noisy mind and see the priorities of life. thank you, bhc, That's a good thing.
Pain medication can't be changed though. i hope that the dr doesn't decide to take me off without a succesful nerve block- i hope that i can meditate and somehow have peace to do the nerve block.
T said he would help and that i'm good with hypnosis. Hopefully it will get us through ok.The pain is worse now, ever since i tried to cut down the regular SR oxycontin dose to 40mg instead of 60mg. i'm back to the regular 60mg dose but my body is not forgiving me or the pain is worse.
now i'm worried that this is serious. i feel abandoned by all the drs that i went to - they obviously missed what was wrong with me and i'm getting so worse. It's been eighteen months now that i've been in terrible pain.
Should i go back to the first Dr- the gyn dr that did the surgery? Tell him that i'm still in very bad pain? i keep wondering if there's anything that can be done to treat it instead of just giving up and taking pain meds.
This is when it's so bad to have a DID and pTSD dx. Every dr that knows will have that in their mind.
we're feeling so discouraged and afraid, can't sleep. i need to pray and meditate. It's difficult because the pain is triggering.
T talked with us yesterday, yes- sure it reminds us of bad memories, but pain is different- not the same. Not a f.b.
we're having trouble with switching and finding myself little- at the worst time crying and no one around understands. everything is so hard. Even my home feels strange.
i wish there was RL support. T is support but it's way hard to try to do therapy when i have this triggering health issue that makes me feel so afraid and hate myself already. Too many things are wrong.Thank you for listening,
kerria
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