Posted by cricket2 on June 30, 2005, at 10:17:18
As I was walking out the door from my last session, my therapist says, "Oh you know I'm not here next week, right? Vacation for 'insert doctor's first name'
My first thought was who's 'doctor's first name'? since I always call him and think of him as Dr. 'last name'. Anyway when I finally made the connection, I just said, "Oh, okay, so when's our next session?" "July 12th," he said.
My next thought, believe it or not, was "Yes! I get a break" and my mind immediately started making a list of everything I want to do while he's gone.
Now, I have to admit I would have liked a little notice on the vacation. If I had known one week in advance or even at the beginning of the last session, I would have taken the tone of the last session which was extremely light and easy, almost chitchat, as more of a gift than asking myself what strange therapeutic direction does he seem to be going in now.
But all that aside, I'm not quite sure what to make of my reaction. I am sure part of it is a defensive child-like reaction. "You're going on vacation. Guess what, I'm even happier than you are about it."
But there was also a genuine sense of relief. Now I will finally have some energy to get some work done, go to the gym, finish that piece of writing, clean my house, take a trip to the beach, see a movie with my husband, etc.
In some ways, that's all nonsense because I go to therapy for one lousy hour a week so how could that be preventing me from doing any and all of the above things but it takes up so much energy that there often seems room for little else in my life.
So I'm wondering if anyone else ever thought about the price (not just money) you pay to go to therapy. Does it ever just seem like it's not worth it?
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