Posted by Jazzed on June 24, 2005, at 7:12:26
In reply to My therapist is counting on you guys., posted by daisym on June 24, 2005, at 1:22:24
>He reminded me that I had his picture and asked me if I remembered what he wrote on the back last year. I nodded and told him, "you wrote, 'I'll be back!'" and the tears showed up. We put the picture into his talisman and I have "permission" to keep it in my pocket, like a transitional object. I feel like such a little kid!
He is an awesome and SO thoughtful T Daisy, no wonder you're going to miss him. It's so wonderful that you have his picture. How many T's would do that? I can't imagine! Don't feel like a little kid, it was so brave of you to go in and tell him how you really feel, when the temptation might be there to try to get him to mind read. You did what was best for you and asked for his help. Remind me again, how did you get his picture? I remember it came up not too long ago, but I can't find the post.
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> We also talked about what I would do to cope and he suggested that I write to him about things. I threatened to bury him in paper when he got back and he countered with, "yeah, but I'll make you read it all to me." I had the last word though, I said, "at least I'd get to stay longer..." He laughed.LOL, you have such a fun and playful relationship! I think writing is an awesome idea. I tend to fantacize, which is fun too.
>He did offer to call me half way through but I said no. I just can't stand the thought of being that much trouble. So he left me a voice mail full of reassurances to play when I need to and a reminder that I did have his cell number if things get too out of control.
Aw, that was so sweet and thougtful of him! Does your husband get jealous at all, or does he understand? My husband doesn't really get the therapy thing, but he's supportive.
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> He also said, "And you have your friends on the board. Don't forget to let them support you. I'm counting on them to keep you safe until I get back." So I guess I'll have to figure out how to pay you guys a consulting fee. :)LOL I hope you do post a lot to work through your feelings. I'll be here. It's great that he knows about the board, do you think he reads it? Would you want him to?
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> Oh, and I'm apologizing in advance for what a baby I'm going to be over the next two weeks. I feel sad and lost and completely disgusted with myself for having no internal fortitude or pride. I'll try to keep most of it under control. I better go buy some more cream of wheat. And liver worst. And cheese cake. And...You're awesome daisy! Give yourself a big break and know that whatever you're feeling is okay. It's valid and acceptable, and we don't think you're a big baby!
Jazzy
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