Posted by Poet on June 20, 2005, at 18:35:20
In reply to Poet, how are you doing?, posted by Dinah on June 20, 2005, at 7:12:57
Hi Dinah,
We're working on chipping away at my negativity and self hatred. I called myself *this thing* two sessions ago. My T leaned forward and said *Poet, you've got to stop referring to yourself that way. You are a human being, not a thing. If you could only see yourself as you really are.*
She said that I have this deep groove of negative thinking that I am stuck in. I can't climb out of it. I guess chipping away at it is like blasting an escape hole. I'll have to tell her that analogy. See I pay attention when she leans forward and uses my name.
She is willing to stick by me even though I think of myself as a stubborn old mule who won't budge. So I guess it's good that one of us sees progress, even if it's slow.
I am trusting her a little more. She said she's noticed that I'm not crossing my arms and legs tightly for the entire session, just once and awhile. She say *don't cross yourself* and it gets me to stop. Though I clench my hands together...
Thanks for asking. How are things with you?
Poet
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