Posted by happyflower on June 10, 2005, at 19:54:11
Has any of this ever happened to you? In my last week of pregnacy, I told one of my OBGYN (who was in his 70's)that I was suffering from constipation, thinking he would give me a pill or something. But instead he took his finger, without me being warned, jamed it into my rectum! It hurt something aweful. I don't remember what I told him, but it wasn't too nice. The nurse in the room looked at me with the saddest eyes.
Well a couple of years ago, I was talking to my cousins wife who was married to a doctor. She told me that they were going to this other doctors funeral, and it was this guy. I told her the only thing I will remember from him was the story I just told you all. Well she said he was also her OBGYN, and it happened to her too. Is this a common thing? All I know is that I felt violated. Should I bring this up in therapy?
Well this memory also brought up another one back when I was 10 or so. I got really sick with stomach pains and threw up and filled a 5 gallon bucket. My mom rushed me to the ER and to make a long story short, they thought I was pregnant ( i hit puberty at 9)and wanted to examine me internally. I wouldn't let them and then they wanted to do it anally, I wouldn't let them do it either, but they tried and gave up. I never even had sex before. Never had a gyno examine either, and it scared me. They did this without my mother in the room ( not that she was any comfort anyways).They told her to leave the room to ask me some questions about my sexual life for privicy from my mom. But it was scary.Now I got to thinking that maybe several months ago when my therapist brought up EMDR, it totally freaked me out. It was like he went from a therapist to a doctor because he wanted to do something physically to me. Maybe this is why I freaked out, or maybe it isn't connected. I have never been sexually abused, unless you consider what the doctor did, and I live a very good sexual life, so I don't know what to think but maybe I should bring it up in therapy. What do you all think?
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