Posted by Rigby on June 3, 2005, at 11:07:52
For those following the painting saga, the painting was gone this week. For those not following, my therapist came back from some sort of break and there was a huge (nearly wall sized) painting propped against a wall--it was a gloomy snow scene.
When I remarked that it was down she said nothing. I think I said, "Too big?" and she just sort of shrugged.
Next weird thing: we were talking about this guy that I've fallen in love with (long story--I've been gay for forever, and fell for a boy--similar to her story as it turns out--she ended up marrying a guy but was gay for a long period of time--oddly similar.) Anyway, I was trying to say that I was concerned he take care of himself since he has tendencies to take care of other people's needs before his own. I said sexually that he could be this way--that his pleasure was so tied into mine--all the time. And she just rolled her eyes and said, "THIS is a problem??!!" She really couldn't get or believe I was saying this about him. And I wasn't trying to not be greatful--this guy is wonderful--I just was explaining that I want to make sure he doesn't get lost in me.
I felt like she might as well have said, "My husband is a selfish a-hole and you're complaining about some guy caring about you too much??"
Sometimes I wonder about this therapist. I wonder that her story is so close to mine and I wonder how objective she is being with me.
UGH.
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