Posted by Racer on May 28, 2005, at 13:53:34
And, dang it! It's hard to do that!
This week, though, I was Very Brave. I brought up how I felt about the whole Cognitive Thing, that it was too close to how I distanced myself from my emotions, that it led to the whole slippery slope to further restrictive eating, etc. Her response was to tell me that, in that case, I was "not doing it right, because if you were doing it right, it would work."
At that moment, I just felt about two inches tall -- and six feet wide -- and ashamed. It took a couple of hours for me to recognize what I finally did recognize: I didn't feel as though she had heard what I said. My nutritional counselor also pointed out to me that the T was placing all the blame on me -- I "was doing it wrong." At any rate, I decided to follow my gut.
Of course, being me, I didn't have any faith in my decision until I called GardenerGirl to make sure it was OK! *g* Thank Goodness for GG!
Anyway, I called yesterday and left a voicemail for the now-ex-T telling her that this wasn't working for me. Cancelling any more appointments I might have had. I expect she'll call to "discuss" this, but my mind is made up and I think I can handle it.
I've also called a T who specializes in EDs, and she "passed" the telephone interview, and we made an appointment for Monday to see if we can sit in the same room together. When I brought up the cognitive thing, she said that, in her twenty-some years working with EDs, she has found that most of us need what I told her I thought I needed -- to learn to recognize our emotions, and tolerate them. NOT to "change" them through cognitive corrections.
I am cautiously optimistic...
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