Posted by pinkeye on May 27, 2005, at 17:00:58
In reply to Re: it might sound quite bitter, but that helps you. » pinkeye, posted by happyflower on May 27, 2005, at 16:50:10
Thanks. It is nice to be thought of fondly. I like your posts as well. I remember myself as 2 - 3 years back when I read your posts - struggling through the initial stages. I can perfectly understand everything you are feeling.
I am not in pain that much nowadays. I am actually healing I guess. I am trying to systematically dismantle all that I built myself - all the transference and attachment, and mistakes and pain and hurt and everything. I am trying to see things for what they are and understand and move on.
I now perfectly understand my exTs attitude.. he wanted to help me, and let me grow, and I think he didn't want me to develop any attachment towards him or liking. And me - I had to develop all those feelings and intensity and go through the roller coaster ride of attahcment, liking and hurting and pain and losing. I think all of it was needed for me to heal. Because I had way too many problems with my dad - I couldn't have done it otherwise. All the longings and deep emotional problems - came out becuase of my attachment towards my exT. And now I am aware of all of it.
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