Posted by Daisym on May 18, 2005, at 19:07:57
In reply to T is sending me to a shrink, posted by thewrite1 on May 18, 2005, at 16:30:28
Ouch! That was my reaction too...complete melt down around being too much for him, too hard, etc. etc. I felt like he wanted me to stop talking about all the sad things. Especially suicide.
We've worked hard on this. I'm still having trouble accepting that I've "resorted" to medication (where is my internal fortitude?!) but after a month and a half I guess I would say that I'm not in such a deep, dark hole and I'm definately sleeping better. Everytime I have to go see the pdoc, I go through the feelings of being sent away again, but I tell him and he reassures me that he doesn't intend to be replaced by little white pills. :)
Mostly I think he wanted me to not be in such tremendous distress between sessions. And that makes sense on some level. I *do* need to work and take care of my kids and clean house.
My helpful hint would be to choose a pdoc carefully and be clear about therapy and medications or just medications. It was confusing to me when the pdoc asked me if I wanted to do therapy with her. My therapist sent me to her, so I thought she would automatically know that I "only" needed medication from her. My therapist also coached me some on what I "had" to tell her and what I could "choose" to tell her. He was worried that I come off so together that she would dismiss most of what I was complaining about. It was interesting that she told me that it was really hard to see depression in folks like me because our energy level is so high to begin with that when we come down we just appear "ordinary" to everyone else. It was the sleep issues that got her attention. Go figure...
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